Thursday, August 18, 2005

I've met a nice person online. Sweet like honey. Oh . . . How I wish I could meet someone like that offline. Someone that doesn't remind me of anyone else. A very funny, smart and interesting person. But I'm beginning to believe I'm cursed to never meet anyone nice . Woe is me . Now go jump off a bridge or something .

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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

I wake up in the middle of the night . And you're all I can think about . Every little thing reminds me of you. I hate that. I hate you. Sometimes I don't miss you at all but you're still on my mind. Forcing me to remember all those silly things we used to do. I wake up in the middle of the night not being able to remember exactly what I was dreaming . Knowing only that it revolved around you. And sometimes that's enough .


I love you all and your horrible little monkey children too . May the world be at peace . And don't let the dogs run free in the yard .

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

My sister's cat is possessed . I swear that fur ball is out to get me. He's tried to trip me so many times now that I'm terrified to take a step out of my room without checking every nook and cranny just to make sure he isn't waiting out there for me. You do know animals are evil . They whisper in my ear to kill ! Kill ! . . . my new medication is gooood .


My bedroom is a fucking mess. I get up in the middle of the night fearing what I'm going to stub my toe on next. I should clean .. Really I should but damn I haven't felt like it . I used to be such a neat freak . What happened ? Jajaja . . . . the mice are out to get me .

Monday, August 15, 2005

I'm in a good mood today . Somebody { who I won't name } asked about my boyfriend <<<< jajajajaja .
Yeah , if you don't know me you obviously have no idea why this is soooo very funny. But anyways this puts me in a good mood . I almost forgot that everything in my life sucks . Just kidding . My sister's cat hates me . I swear I'm not paranoid .

{kissme}

Sunday, August 14, 2005


This is Image hosted by TinyPic.comGwen .. Isn't she totally fuckin hot


Yesterday was my little sister's b-day. She turned 15 . I guess she isn't so little anymore but to me she's still an annoying little brat. I'm going to get nostalgic now ... jajaja . We hardly get along -- she thinks I don't understand her . But I do -- a little too well. She's going through her teen-angst phase and hates about everything right now.
I don't think I ever got that bad but then again you'd have to ask my mother . I'm ok . I haven't tortured any kittens lately ... { that's a joke}

Friday, August 12, 2005

Tomorrow I'm going to my brother's house to meet the new baby. I'm nervous . I don't really know his wife very well. And my mother tells me that she [ the wife ] thinks I hate her. In case you haven't noticed I'm a tad awkard. But I promised my mother that I would behave myself -- so I guess that means I can't run out of house the moment the wife tries to talk to me.
I think I might have eaten something I shouldn't have . I'm breaking out in a rash . I'm going to bed now . ciao

Thursday, August 11, 2005

It's too hot to sleep. There are days I miss you like the first week I lost you. And then I remember I let you go and it hurts just a little more then it should. You are like this heat that sticks to my skin and keeps me from getting a good nights rest. I try not to think about you. Or why I ever let you go .

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

If you stay long enough you'll soon discover that it is not that hard to lie to me. That I will believe anything you tell me. That you can brake me into a million pieces and put me back together any way you wan't. If you stay long enough you will see that I need you more then I should. That I'm empty without you . So please leave while I'm still able to resist you .

Sunday, August 07, 2005

In honour of my new red hair . . now go away



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I dyed my hair red . I like it. It makes me look even more pale .. that I don't particularly like but I guess you can't have everything. I saw a new toy for my computer I want to buy. I'm broke right now but as soon as I get money in my hands I'm getting it.
I miss live music. I miss concerts. I'm bored and I haven't finished my manuscript .. I'm too fucking lazy and it seems that these days it's just too damn hot to do anything .
As you might have guessed I still can't sleep. . .

Monday, August 01, 2005


I'm so fuckin bored . And hot -- sweaty too.I need money to spend and I'm sooo broke right now. I've been sitting infront of the computer for nearly 6 hours and yet the words I'm looking for elude me so without further ado I leave you with my favorite stroke .. Julian Casablancas ... ummm

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    [3] the strokes
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    [2] bad drivers
    [3] labels
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    [5] most men
    [6] most women
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