Saturday, April 30, 2005

I'm home . I'm home and where should I begin ? my parents were waiting for me at the airport and while I would like to say that it was a cheerful reunion .. I hate lying. My dear father wasn't too happy to see me or maybe he was happy to be able to yell at me once again. At first it didn't bother me too much but like everything after an hour or two of being called an idiot it kinda starts to get annoying. I have a big mouth. I can't ever shut up -- apparently this is true . I'm grounded for a few years .. well , at least that's what he says but I've never been one to follow orders . at least not his -- my mom like always got overly emotional and made me promise that I would never do anything like this again. she kept asking if 'anything' had happened to me .. umm .. I'm still not sure what she expected me to say .
Also I found that a 'friend ' of mine has been doing me the favor of telling everyone that I'm .. well .. I'm sure by now most of you know . What a fucking bastard ... and no we aren't friends anymore . go fuck yourself and stop trying to call me. I'm tired now so goodnight and catch you all later .


Bled to DEATH ♥ at
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Monday, April 25, 2005

I'm so fucking angry right now. I should have totally expected this and I did . but I'm still so fucking angry. I knew it would be me - - why did I even think he wouldn't fuck me over . I'm going to drive into a tree , Ciao .

Saturday, April 23, 2005

I cut my hair a few weeks ago. It looks like shit. If people used to say I looked 15 yrs old now I look around 12 . I might post a picture [ if I get around to it] ... and while at any other time I would have loved to piss him off by refusing to cut it . this time I didn't have much choice .. it was either cut it or get expelled which at this point would not be a good thing. I'm at a friends house . far far away from my beloved family . I imagine my dad has been calling everyone trying to figure out where I am .. this thought at least makes me smile.
I still can't sleep. I'm an idiot -- I should take the damn medication but you know me .
Chiv tells me I'm incapable of falling in love .... In the past month she's called me a spoiled brat , a bastard , an asshole , etc .. etc . I'm beginning to think she doesn't like me much. But she might be right.
I'm not used to people liking me . It's uncomfortable. It only makes me smoke even more then I usually do. Ciao //

Monday, April 04, 2005

It will always be hard for someone else to understand the bond between us. At times it's even harder for us to accept it but of course in the end it's something we can't get away from. There are things you will never tell anyone else . Things I sometimes wish you wouldn't tell me . You are complicated . Stubborn . A fuckin asshole at times. But that's something I already knew when I met you . You are not perfect . But you will never understand this. And that's fine because I have no desire to make you see that.

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-Ella
-I suffer from a lack of personality
-Currently residing in a small town
-located in uranus,
-not the best place to reside
-Fairly single
- <3 Dr. Chase
-afraid of the dark
-anxious
-depressed
-angry
-lost
-and true hater of snow
-Caffeine & Book addict
-Harry Potter fan . Music lover
-Slash addict . Wannabe writer
-Sometimes confused
-hardly
-In love
-Extremely . .
-Sappy
-Introverted
-Sarcastic
-Mostly Happy

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    3. clowns
    4. heights
    5. the dark

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    1. bigotry
    2. ignorance
    3. intolerance
    4. stubbornness
    5. homophobia

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    [1] edward scissorhands
    [2] american history x
    [3] brokeback mountain
    [4] the nightmare before..
    [5] the full monty
    [6] psycho
    [7] halloween
    [8] hedwig and the angry inch
    [9] wonder boys
    [10] beauty and the beast

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    [2] weezer- pinkerton
    [3] the white stripes - de stijl
    [4] the strokes- is this it
    [5] the white stripes
    [6] nine inch nails- downward spiral
    [7] smashing pumpkins- mellon collie and the infinite sadness
    [8] marilyn manson - antichrist superstar
    [9] the strokes - room on fire

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    [1] weezer
    [2] elliott smith
    [3] the strokes
    [4] nine inch nails
    [5] the white stripes
    [6] marilyn manson
    [7] smashing pumpkins
    [8] moenia

    7 Things That Annoy You

    [1] people who talk too much
    [2] bad drivers
    [3] labels
    [4] being stared at
    [5] most men
    [6] most women
    [7] dirty dishes

    5 TV Shows

    [1] Criss Angel
    [2] House
    [3] 48 hr mystery
    [4] Bones
    [5] CSI

    3 Albums Recently Bought

    [1] the strokes - first impressions..
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