Saturday, January 24, 2009

everyday i seem to become more and more paranoid. slowly (or maybe not so slowly) i'm inching to becoming a true hermit.
I would not feel so bad if i didn't know this was tearing my parents hearts.
Because no matter how hard i try to explain, they just can't understand that i'm not normal enough to go out and get a nice sweet boy to love me.

.. how's life treating you?

Bled to DEATH ♥ at
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Sunday, January 18, 2009


Saturday, January 17, 2009

life just keeps getting better and better . . no, not really.
recently some asshole broke into my car and stole my stereo, my CD mixes and a can of oil. Yeah, no shit.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

work is totally busting my ass ! but I need a new truck . . well, as new as it's going to get. I still totally suck at driving but you everyone is on my back about getting off my ass and learning . . so despite my gut-wrenching anxiety I'm going to give it another try..


And we [ The Losers United ] are soooo disappointed in you J.K Rowling ...
so so disappointed . .

Friday, June 29, 2007

I'm sick and tired of this layout but I haven't been feeling particularly well these past few months . . I had a cancer scare this last month but now it seems like all will be alright.
There are so many things I would like to say to you . . but
I'm scared that if you knew just how truly messed up I am that you would never be able to look at me again . .
I want to make you happy . .
but more then that I want to be happy.
Maybe that's just too much to ask for..
then again . . I might just be clinging to my drama.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

... I'm mostly dead at the moment

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

I'm loving Lex's new writing . . even though, he's still an asshole [ Ha ! ]. I have to admit his writing is getting soooo much better which I sorta didn't think would happen. Went to see them live last night and I nearly got trampled by the teeny-tiny girls that always hang at their shows. It was one of those moments where you wish you'd remember to bring your stun gun . . but I would have prolly been more likely to use it on Lex or Jacque .


. . . Slashy boys are still hot like burning .

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Two more months before I get my new laptop !!!! YAY !! rejoice motherfuckers . . .
Made a new friend online[ what?] and we exchanged cellphone # . . which was sorta creepy at first but now it's cool. She is total love . I have a huge cellphone bill but what the hell it's fun talking to her at night when I should be working.



I have a new slash obsession : Pete Wentz/and the beautiful and talented . . . Patrick Stumph . . .

Believe it . . . I'm still alive.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Yesterday I went out and bought some stuff. finally. I have this strange desire to jump into a car and just drive away from here . . the only problem is I have no idea where to go ?
Any ideas ?

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

. . . . I'm still a slasher at heart. forgive me if I don't slash my own characters . .
all of you lovelies take care ♥

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

I've been totally swamped with work lately and so of course all I've been doing is sleeping. I miss going out with my buds - - even Lex and Jacque .

Speaking of Lex . . . I hear some of you found out a little secret about him. He's a good guy . . if not all the time there. HE does enjoy playing with people but I suppose he does it only to those he thinks deserve it. But don't worry about it - - he has done this TO A LOT of people.

Hope you're all having a good New Year !!

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Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Some people should not be allowed to breed. I've met some real bastards and it makes me shudder to think what totally messed up kids they might have . And no I'm not just dissin on guys . .some women are just as bad.
I've always thought I'd make a terrible mother but then you don't see me lining up at the MOMMY-Line .

I'm working on Christmas . YIPPEE ! shit, can life suck anymore then this?

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Let me tell you about my life . .
about the things that have made up most of my existence . .
or at least the ones that have stayed so imprinted into my
consciousness that I've never quite forgotten them. .
That first kiss that we shared while we hid under the table
hoping no one would find us . .
A first kiss that would be as sweet as innocence because that's all
there really was in it . .
Losing your brother and then your mother . .
And realizing that now you might actually be truly and utterly alone . .
Speeding down deserted roads with your friends singing in the backseat . .
Standing outside your window playing guitar until you finally
decided to come out . .
Never quite sure what to say to you . . .
And your hand always warm - - holding onto mine .

Sunday, November 26, 2006

I am finished with all my xmas shopping . . .
I'm still alive and I guess that's a good thing .
Though I'm still feeling pretty shitty but you all know how it goes
what doesn't kill you . .
only causes extreme psychological damage .



as always . . .
M/L

Thursday, November 23, 2006

I feel so very unhappy today - - I don't know why I ever assumed it could get better for me . I will not go into detail about this because it's a very personal matter but it comes down to making me feel like shit.

I've decided to skip thanksgiving .
I just wouldn't be able to go through with it . . so I'm just going to stay in my room until I have to go to work.



Hope the rest of you are faring better.
M/L

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Thanksgiving is just around the corner and we still haven't gone out and bought anything . . . that's sorta of our thing . My bro probably won't be coming by so much for the family dinner thing - - oh Well !

I tried to lighten my hair and I totally fried it . .thank god I'm seeing my hair stylist soon .

Saturday, November 11, 2006

HAPPY B- DAY SIS
MUCH LOVE TO THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN MAKE ME LAUGH NO MATTER WHAT<3

Friday, November 10, 2006


I love this boy. If you've been reading me then you know who HE is <3

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

why is it that parents are always so hard to get along with . I hate getting caught in the middle of an argument but it seems that is the way it has been for as long as I can remember. My sisters are always expecting me to come to their rescue and I'm so used to doing it that now I don't even think about it . Well not until later when I'm storming out of my parents house and I realize that this had nothing to do with me .


M/L to Alexander the Great "Lex" , Jacque, Laurent and the Amoeba .

Monday, October 30, 2006

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-Ella
-I suffer from a lack of personality
-Currently residing in a small town
-located in uranus,
-not the best place to reside
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- <3 Dr. Chase
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    [3] the strokes
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    [8] moenia

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    [2] bad drivers
    [3] labels
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    [5] most men
    [6] most women
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